I'm not going to lie-this weekend was a little rough on me emotionally. I'm trying to move forward and keep a positive outlook while also trying to forge a friendship with C. I knew that it would not be easy to do, so I've been giving myself some space to try and figure out my feelings. My main goal is to not make the same mistakes that I made with my first long term relationship. He and I had broken up, but instead of trying to move forward as individuals, I clung to him (for dear life sometimes) and we acted as if we were still together. The entire relationship was unhealthy enough, but having such complications after breaking up was devastating to me. It's taken a long time for me to start to be okay with how we turned out, and I just won't allow myself to repeat that kind of pain. Anyway, this weekend was difficult because C and I did hang out, and while it was nice it was also painful at the end when we went our separate ways, because it was the reminder that we are not together, and I would be waking up alone the next day. I just need to keep remembering an e-mail that a friend of mine sent me. It says this:
"To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better." It went on to give this quote "The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you."
On a lighter note, I got my library card and started reading Jane Eyre at the pool on Saturday. I'm liking it so far, and I can't wait to dive into it further. I will also be receiving Eat Pray Love in the mail this week, so that's next on my reading agenda. My best friend and I are going on a girl's trip this weekend with my dog, Maggie. I did have to re-schedule my volunteer orientation to next week with a local animal shelter, and I'm excited to get started. I am ALSO looking into flights to Baltimore, MD to visit a girlfriend of mine, Journey. Keep sending me positive thoughts; I appreciate the support!
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