Dream, dream dream

I had a dream last night that I was meeting relatives in Germany. What an amazing experience. I was able to smell the air, enjoy the scenery of the countryside where they live in Schwabisch-Gmund and meet cousins and aunts that I wouldn't have a chance to in my waking life (not at this moment at least). I had a discussion with a cousin, Hildegarde, about why I wasn't able to have children. At the time I was speaking with her, I went over to a part of the yard where children were playing and picked up my nephew. I sat him on my lap, and told him "Ich liebe dich". I said, "Do you know what this means sweetheart?" He said no, and I told him "It means, I love you. Lots." I then gave him a kiss. My cousin looked at me, smiling, and I could tell she knew that I had meant it. I then woke up.

There was more to the dream than this portion, but this was the part that I needed the most help understanding. I came into work and looked up what it meant to be "infertile". The dreamers dictionary said this:

To dream that you are infertile, represents a lack of creativity. Something in your waking life isn't working out the way you want it to. The dream may also reflect your own state of infertility and the struggles to have a baby.

I'm not trying to have a baby, so it makes perfect sense that it would be the fact that there is something in my life that's not working out the way I want it to. The symbolism of me immediately picking up my nephew and loving him represents my struggles to understand my brother and his situation. I am still extremely upset by his actions and threats to exclude me from seeing him or my nephew. I won't force the issue, but I don't agree with him. He is having so many personal struggles, and he is refusing to help himself. I wish he would, for the sake of himself and his children. I love all of them so much, and I want the best for my brother as well as my neice and nephew.